Again, the cause was from complications of lifelong alcohol use. The story that we heard was that he died throwing up in a bucket the cause of his death was contributed to alcoholism. She was the second oldest girl with one older brother and sister and 3 younger sisters. My mother who is fifty percent Indigenous American and fifty percent European grew up in a Southern Baptist family. They are my mother’s children from her first marriage. My three oldest sisters are half-sisters. My Parents I was the second youngest girl in a family of 6 girls and two boys. I then go down the stairs to the living room where my husband and five-year-old son S I do not want to put this burden on my family I need to be alone to process all of the emotions that were attacking me causing random pains all over my body.Entering my house, I head straight to my bedroom and pack an overnight bag. Usually, you would have a good time staying at a casino, but I was more interested in the free room that they give you for gambling there in the past. On my way home, I called my husband and told him that I needed a break, and asked if he could watch the children so that I could spend the night at the casino alone. I had begun to pry open the safe that I kept locked in my mind and feelings were beginning to seep out while I desperately tried to push them back in. I was used to controlling my emotions and my actions but at this moment I felt like I would explode. Leaving Erica's office, I felt agitated and on edge. I did manage to find a neighborhood group of friends when I was eight, but they only lasted for a year before I wasn’t allowed to play with them anymore.Like many kids at the time, my siblings and I spent a lot of time alone without supervision. Meaning I was always the “new student” and had to find friends when everybody already had their friend groups. Most of them I entered in the middle of the year. In total, I went to six different elementary schools. Now I’m not saying that I was the only poor kid in my schools, at most of them there were plenty of us. While many of the girls in my elementary school had their hair crimped and walked around with Lisa Frank accessories, I had crooked uncombed hair and a pencil.

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